26 January 2010
Had a long chat with the special friend last night. Things have been nice all this while, and they promise to continue to be nice. I think it's about time I say it out in the open and loud enough for everyone to hear.
I've lost the plot. I just don't know anymore. I've been trying to reach out externally and internally, but my compass is just not working. I don't know if many of you face this often, but I don't remember the last time I just did not know right from wrong.
I know I have many a times, said, when you're not sure of what to do, just don't do anything at all, but you know what I've also realized. You waste time like that, you loose things, you find things in people that you could have found earlier had you had the direction earlier. In many ways, it's like listening to music without the words, of a song that you love.
But as much as I try and think it through and through, I just don't know the answer. When did it get so hard? Why did it get so hard? Arggghhh!