30 November 2007

Ambrosia

we all think that in life we want to belong.
But all we really want is for something to belong to us.

Something of value to us,
something as precious to us,

something that is unique,
a fantasy come true,

a life that's a dream,
that's within our control,

A man who's so amazing,
dinners that taste like family,

give us memories so sweet,
ambrosia seems shit,

diabetes like air,
in a happy world like this,

something of value to us,
something as precious to us,

that all we really want,
is for something to belong to us.

04 November 2007

Trepidition

i know why they get addicted to u now. i know why i loved you so much before.

ur smell and ur taste. the way u make my head whirl.

i'm going to miss you so much when u have to go.

for now i'll remember u for what u are to me.

you helped me remember why i did the things i did before.

how sometimes we are just as ill suited for our lives as sugar on diabetic lips.

and when u come amidst smoke. and i brace myself for you.

and when i embrace you. you make me feel like i am, what i think.

and i remembered our conversation when we met the very first time. how we spoke and spoke till early in the morning. and how we both knew we had to give this a shot. and it felt like we were in a movie. and u told me that you loved me on the staircase on your knees. there was moonlight, there was breeze and we were both intoxicated.

and then it ended.

and i forgot why we began. and i remembered yesterday.