i know why they get addicted to u now. i know why i loved you so much before.
ur smell and ur taste. the way u make my head whirl.
i'm going to miss you so much when u have to go.
for now i'll remember u for what u are to me.
you helped me remember why i did the things i did before.
how sometimes we are just as ill suited for our lives as sugar on diabetic lips.
and when u come amidst smoke. and i brace myself for you.
and when i embrace you. you make me feel like i am, what i think.
and i remembered our conversation when we met the very first time. how we spoke and spoke till early in the morning. and how we both knew we had to give this a shot. and it felt like we were in a movie. and u told me that you loved me on the staircase on your knees. there was moonlight, there was breeze and we were both intoxicated.
and then it ended.
and i forgot why we began. and i remembered yesterday.