30 January 2009


Cz there are no nickels in my pocket.
All my nickels were lost.

And the cents in my pocket,
Were there one day and now their gone.

Atleast I have my pants on I think,
And just then, they come off my waist.

So I think you know, what I'd still have on,
And that is where I am at now.

29 January 2009

Missing Love

I havent felt a need to think about love in awhile now. And suddenly today, in the worst of timings, at work, on break inbetween a training session I suddenly feel this over whelming emptiness or lack of feeling connected to someone. I guess it has been awhile and I realize now, this particular moment that I miss it. I really really do.

Especially the way corny love songs make sense, and the way you look forward to every day because you will see that person. How none of your clothes look nice when you are to go see them, and at the end of the day the way your heart drops because you have to spend a whole night of loneliness before you see them again.

I know it doesn't last forever, even in couples that do last forever.. but FYI, I miss it. :)

26 January 2009


I love life, and it is means to live it. I may not always feel this way, not everyday atleast. I don't think anyone feels this way, well.. unless your Fidel, he seems to love the world and living it every day.

The latest pressing issue for me, is the death of Kugan. Malaysia is talking about it, India is celebrating Republic Day and making plans to elude the eclipse that is also occuring today.

He died while under police interrogation, and a forum that I've been a part of is spewing a lot of distaste for the incident. In all my objectivity, I refuse to address the matter as a racially motivated incident, as I strongly feel that dying under interrogation is relatively common incident that occurs every where in the world. And it is wrong, and it needs to be battled for what it is, an abuse of power more than, having a country up in arms angry at the so called 'racial attack'.

Yes we understand that there may be many layers to any conflict, and this is just a tip in the iceberg of discontention & disillusionment of the Indian populace. We all however, know of the story where the boy cried wolf too many times.

Let me re-iterate, it is not that this issue is not important.. I just don't see the issue as being exclusive or racially driven.


18 January 2009

In words

what is in a word of insult, but the meaning and feelings of the person that says it.

why should it define the person that it is targeted at, and not the person that says it.

why is it when things are to go wrong, it isn't one or two but everything.

why is it that when the things that really matter go away, they go in silence,
and when small things strut it, there's so much noise and hullaballoo.

In a funeral we loose a body, a mother or a child,
But everyday we loose ourselves, and there's no one to cry for us.

Make me diamond houses and fly me in diamond cars,
Cause this glass house breaks too fast.

06 January 2009

ALOHA 2009

I have a problem with the world and its terrorists. I have a problem with the definition of terrorists and terrorism. And I have a problem with most people viewing the world and it's problems in black & white, when there's a whole colour spectrum of truth left to be explored.

So the Hamas rebels of Palestine bombed the southern states of Israel. So angry Israel, launched an airstrike and now an on-foot offensive straight into Gaza, bombing UN buildings and killing 500 odd people of which 133 were confirmed Hamas rebels. While the Hamas store weapons & launch rockets from Gaza, they are an organisation backed by Iran & Syria. So I ask the mighty Israelis to go shoot the money lenders (pun not intended)- chopping off the tops of trees, only means more branches.

So Pakistani terrorist outfit LeT attacked the Taj & Trident & the railstation & Jewish centre in India and killed about 300 odd people, all civilians. The LeT's agenda to make South Asia an Islamic sub-continent & liberate the 'muslims' living in India administered Kashmir, apparently justified the murder of all these people. And I don't even want to get into the puppy eyed response from the Pakistani officials regarding the event.

So the Sri Lankan armies have totalled the Tigers down south, with the fall of Killinochchi. Not if TN (Tamil Nadu) has anything to say about it. With a sympathetic heart for the Tigers who for so long have caused a destruction & I say this, not for one moment forgetting the events of Black July in 1982, battles have already begun in TN on who should mobilize funds to help the Tigers out. And how do I know this? I just do.

So if India were to do an Israel, would Pakistan call the events in Mumbai late last year, 'unfortunate'?

And if Israel were to do an India with the Palestinians (which would actually be to call themselves a secular nation with no religious identity, and open their doors to share the space), would there finally be peace in the middle east?

And if Tamil Nadu became pacifist, and said they were going to concentrate on the recent lorry strikes that is threatening to cut the supply of meat, vegetables & materials (petrol!!!) to the cities instead of ways to flush funds/ weapons to the Tigers, would there be a chance of the Sinhalese apologizing for Black July & well the Tigers saying sorry for all the years before and after mean peace in Lanka?

I guess the real issue here is, how in the grown up world of politics- we get to see, with much more clarity and objectivity, that there really is no 'right' thing to do at any given time. A previous international agreement for a 6 month cease fire between Hamas & Israel, only gave the Hamas time to restock for the 7th month. And just like we hear LeT bombs Pakistani cities & towns, and are told that the Tigers kill tamil citizens too : we find, in this increasingly stratified world, a need to recognize hypocrisy and maintain our best game faces.

"'We should avoid all provocative and inflammatory
suggestions. Look at that innocent little Israeli boy who lost both his parents.
Suppose he grows up to become a terrorist avenging his parent's brutal death?
It's very important for us to understand why they're doing what they're doing.
Otherwise these attacks will never stop." OM

"Pakistan has been using terrorism as an “instrument of state policy,” PM MANMOHAN SINGH

"Pakistan's persistent efforts to defuse the current tensions with India, and his government's commitment to take action against any Pakistani national in case credible evidence is provided" PM GILANI