Throwing that thought out of the window.
Recently, an interaction with an old friend told me something new about myself. Somewhere & some how, unbeknownest to me, I've transformed into someone who takes themselves seriously, and if that were not enough, expects people to take her seriously.
I dont know how this happened, and with this realization, im afraid that Pandoras box has been opened. I cannot, now, tell myself that it's OK, that someone was rude to you. I now HAVE to tell the other person. Feedback. Coaching. Call it what you will, it's all the same.
Driven by absolute rage, it is not controllable, and I think it's burnt a friendship. I know, that if I had to second guess someone's intent, then I dont know them very well, and then that would mean that they are not my friend... Eliminating any notion of friendship lost... But... This severance has cost me comprehension, I fear.
Why did they think they could say what they said. Was it me? Did I used to let people talk to me, disrespectfully? Or. Have I changed now, into someone who cannot take a joke - even a bad, crude, unecessary and archaic not so funny one?
I don't know.. But, given im now in my 30s.. Anything is possible!