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Saudade

So many times the people we love have said words can't express the way they feel about us. Yes, it is true. So many times we are limited by language, from expressing what we adaquately feel. We find it difficult to believe that the overwhelming emotion that we feel inside us can be measured and disseminated to others through just words.

And we actively insult the only means by which we say to those we feel strongly about, that we care and that we are there. It is about time we feel as we know, that while our communication skills may never measure up to our emotions, it is only through communicating we're ever going to sort out the breaks and gaps we know we have.

And when we cant find a word, lets borrow from the languages around us- they do perhaps emote better than the ones we use commonly. Like saudade- a portugese word to describe a longing for something that may never return, that we hope mindlessly will defy norm and return to us anyway.

It is not the same as nostalgia. It …

Saudade

This is a poem I wrote for you, B. At a time when you were missed a lot. When you finish this, click on the hyperlink on the last word in the poem.


u are the darling sky, with your arms spread so wide.
u watch me, sun me and sometimes rain on me.

u are the ground i walk on, supporting me,
holding me, and when i fall on u, you only hurt me

u are the air i breathe, reaching into me so deep,
should you bring poison, i will die easily

u are the love i never thought i'd have,
and maybe the one i'll never have

but at night, when its so quiet,
ur the only person i think of

and i hope ur sting is gentler than your love.

Stop crying your heart out

Hold up... hold on... don't be scared

You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile... Shine on... Don't be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm.

Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up... Come on... why you scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

Lessons

Its taken me long enough to put a post in here about anything in general. As an update, it's been a funny couple of weeks. Since I've returned, there's been a marriage, a death, two accidents, potentially two trips.. if u could squeeze that all into just over a month, you've borrowed a piece of my life.

I may be 22 in age, but when i recently went to visit a friend in the hospital, who had fractured and literally broken his feet from an accident, I realize that its the first time I'm visting someone I know at the hospital.. who isn't in there to have a baby. The last time I think I've even been to the hospital for a visit, was to accompany DD at UH, when her cousin had a bike accident. And i do not know how to handle someone else's pain, (it can be masked, offcourse). I could offer to fluff their pillows, or bring a fresh bottle of water, buy car/bike magazines... but I could not feel their pain. And it was worrying, it appears to me that the girl who us…