Plate

Lately, life's been putting me through a ringer. Getting older hasn't been something that has upset me very much but watching the people around me get older has been hard, physically taxing and mentally challenging.  If it were just the obviousness of loss, I wouldn't be writing in here. It's the combined knowledge of life's limitedness, confounded by the obvious truths of 'aloneness ' (a topic I've almost 'harped' on about here over the years) and then the emotionally charged slow everyday good byes we say to an ill parent or an ailing aunt. There is happiness in this world, but there is definitely a lot of sadness too.  Sometimes I think, life's balances are somewhat skewed for a lot of us- so happy to start with and then, wham! Wave after wave, incoming loss, tragedy, drama, chaos, and loss again... You get the drift.  So how do I balance it? I've learnt to go on beautiful hikes with anyone or no one but mostly with friends