Whoah....intimidation is something that's very very worrisome... just taken a blog tour..shanil i just thought i should write this in here before i forget... ur prb the only one of us living it right now man.. living the way life is meant to be lived...hats off to u...
but ofourse u won't knw this till i give u my address..and well that depends on when i can actually remember my address...should be soon enuff..
Argh- i feel so low right now.
Memories are sticky, heavy and refuse to leave. The overcrowd your mind, refuse to let u think with that thread of rationality, normalcy. Sometimes they weigh u down, keep u there, so much so that u fear not being able to get up.
I WANNA FAG RIGHT NOW SO BAD.
BUT I REMEMBER MY SUPPOSED RESOLUTION.
I wanna cry now, so bad but i knw i shouldn't. Tears comes easy to those who give up easy right? That's what they say right... well i do give up! And when i say i give up, i give up on 'making sense'... it is my fitfull conclusion that coherence exists only to those who choose to delude themselves... in reality nothing make sense because we lay boundaries in our mind that define the black frm the white, the right frm the wrong and yet we cross them all the time. We pull these boundaries all the time, bend them and break
them and at the end of the day in definition we loose ouselves to such an extent that we no longer remember what we're defining or the purpose of those definitions.
D r i f t e r s
in our individuality, alone and lost in this world of
identities, and perceptiveness that when it comes down to it no one understands the other past point 0. Our
perception is myopic, thick fog covers everything... we can't see past our nose...I CAN'T SEE PAST MY NOSE....
so why bother communicating, understanding participating in this game called life...we are hamsters in cages running on our wheels...every now and then someone tosses a couple of hurdles...and i refuse to jump past this hurdle... i quit and i give up so well, bloody hell
I CRY GOD DAMMIT.